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So today sucks in a way. My only class from 8-9 was canceled, but i was not informed until i got there. However I was not the only dumbass who did not check their email before coming to class. I could have found a better way to use my time then wasting it driving 20 mins to a class I did not have......(sleep would have been a good one).

Anyway, now that i am over that...i apologize for the lack of updates. I have not been posting as of late because I just not have been feeling life this past week. Beside last monday, i did not go to class last week. The funny thing is that I wake up as if i were getting ready for school but then think to myself "whats the point?", we are not covering anything important. I don't know why I do this to myself but i always manage to feel like this at some point in the quarter. It never fails, and then i find myself scrambling to do well in all my classes. I think it is because i need a spark or some kind of motivation while going though the quarter. After the same schedule for 6 weeks of getting up, going to class, then going to work, and sleep...I really just find myself stuck in a mundane situation and find a need to switch things up a little. Usually this happens by blowing off school...which is never good in a quarter system. you could get away with it in a semester system but i am finding it more difficult to improve my grades with only 3 weeks left then finals.

This is one quality that find to be annoying about myself. The extreme laziness that could hit me anytime just bugs the shit out of me. I could be doing other, more productive things with my time, but instead I always end up telling myself i will do it later and finally the deadline is tomorrow and stress myself out to get things finished. I know everyone has cases of procrastination, but i constantly do it over and over. I am going to try change for the better, and focus on putting more effort in the things i do. I can start by studying for my midterm which is tomorrow for my accounting class. I've known about this midterm since last tuesday, and still can not find it in me to go to class or pick up the book. It looks like i will be in the books all day today, trying to catch up.

So another reason for my lack of effort in school is that I have been playing golf more and more now. I find it enjoyable once again to be out on the course with people I know. I think its because now i actually have people to play with. Before I found it difficult to go to the course because i had no one to talk too and bullshit with. But since i got my new clubs I have made an effort to play more with my co workers and some of the regulars at the course. It is fun to compete against these guys to find out how your game stacks up against others. I am on track to becoming a better player, i think, and hopefully by summer i will able to break par once again.

anyway, there will be more from me later. take care

-nick